A couple weeks back I had the opportunity to attend the Other Festival and watch numerous talented women give a room full of equally amazing women some words of wisdom. My favorite piece of advice came from Amber Assel . She said something along the lines of: if you aren’t sharing your passion with the world, you are doing the universe a disservice. These words have haunted me ever since I heard them.
I find myself passionate about so many different things, but terrified to show these interests to the world out of fear that people won’t accept the person I am, or that I will simply fail miserably. I have been thinking about this a LOT lately.
To be completely honest I like to have different facets of myself that I choose to show to different people. There are only a handful, maybe 3 or 4 friends, who have had access to my complete self. I often tell friends of my different “facets”, its actually a bit weird because sometimes I create another “self” with names, even. I swear I’m not crazy, just bringing out something similar to what Beyonce did with Sasha Fierce and Yoncé.
I often hide the fact that I have a fashion blog or downplay it, when its actually something I’m incredibly passionate about. I have “RBF” 99% of the time, but when you get to know me I am probably the weirdest and most awkward person you will ever meet. But this summer I have come to find that being that weird and awkward person has made me more authentic and able to connect with people. In the past I have tried to create this facade of this cool chic that has it all, but I’m really just a normal college student that happens to be incredibly passionate about a multitude of topics.
But I think my most hidden “self” would probably be the part of me(there I go again)-so scratch that- my strong interest in fitness. If for some reason I couldn’t make a career out of fashion, I would 100% be in the fitness industry. I honestly find the gym to be my therapy-I am a gym rat to say the least. I actually try my best to not tell people about this little known fact, but its such a huge part of me so why am I hiding it from the world? Again it all comes down to the fear of being judged.
I’m tired of downplaying my self, I have a unique eye for fashion, I have found strength in my body and pushed myself to my limits, and I have grown to become someone that I am truly proud of. I can shamelessly market myself and my strengths because there is no reason that I should be hiding any part of myself from the world.